Four months sober, Cara Delevingne reflects on what prompted her to seek treatment

Delevingne said a major turning point came after seeing paparazzi images of her disheveled self at the Van Nuys Airport in September. She had just finished a series of trips that included a huge 30th-birthday bash, a three-week vacation in Ibiza and Burning Man in Nevada.

“It’s heartbreaking because I thought I was having fun, but at some point it was like, ‘OK, I don’t look well,’” she said. “You know, sometimes you need a reality check, so in a way those pictures were something to be grateful for.”

Even so, Delevingne lamented during the interview about the role paparazzi continue to play in normalizing shame toward people who need help. “It makes the whole cycle worse for people going through it,” she said.

As her network of friends surrounded her after the release of the images, she decided to seek treatment.

“All I knew is if I was continuing to go down the road I was, I would either end up dead, doing something really, really stupid, and that was scary,” she said.

Delevingne said she needed a communal setting to heal and address the internalized shame and self-hatred that she had been running from by turning to alcohol and drugs. The substances made her feel “invincible,” she said, but also became “a scary thing to the people around you who love you.”

In treatment, she said she began to face herself more honestly and gave herself “the chance to really be who you are and sit in that uncomfortability.”

“Because my God, it’s quite uncomfortable for a minute,” she added, “but it gets better, and it’s worth it. “

In her recent months of sobriety, Delevingne said, she has been able to do things she had always enjoyed, such as going out and dancing, but with a different perspective. She actually had “deep conversations and connections with people.”

And she noticed another weird thing after treatment: “I got back to this house and it just looked different,” she said. “It’s like it was a new place because I was different.”